Deep inside, where the sun wasnt allowed to shine. Where the trueness of the heart lies. There is nothing that can prove, that this heart can love anymore.
It shifts attention like the beams refecting of a disco ball, I say, u can love only one person truly, but the hard truth remains, we can love many, but show our loyalty to just one.
It hurts, to see her in hope standing there next to another heartache. But what right do i have, im one of them. The more i try to protect, the more i hurt, it's irony i find myself walking through that road of loneliness, and depression again.
There isnt a way i can show her my genuinity of love, it cant be expressed as its a mere expression of emotions. There's no way i can win over this situation, things have gone too far, and she pushing me away.
I never wish to leave. I never wish to walk away, nor did i wish to tastte the love of u for the sake of fun. Im truly in love, but it's this heart of mine i need to control before my own love hurts.
There is little but to do for me, i cant bid fairwell, ill have u in the memories of my smiles. I tried my best to keep things going, but im sorry it wasnt enough.
The only thing i wish u take away from me, is lessons and experience of how to deal with this world. I wish u all a happy life, the bitterness i live with may subside, but will never die.
I wish to live within u forever, a little voice that talks when needed, the comfort when ur curious and anxious in life. I tried my best to stay forever, but if i can't i try to leave u with a token of myself.
My love as a lover was'nt fake, nor was it a game. I've loved with what all my heart has to offer, its the awakening of this society within that pulls us poles apart.
I sit here, with sheets wet with salty tears, i hide them as were not allowed to cry, i bless u with lovers that would be as genuine as i wish to be, and i soak myself from the bitterness of failure, solitare and depression. the warmth withing my eyes is turning cold, i feel.
This is the inside buisness of a lover's crime.
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